Reading: Anne Rice "Taltos"
Listening to: Beyonce "The closer i get to you"
Mood:



I could hear my heart pounding hard,
but i ain't care...
I drank down the last drop of my birthday wish tequilla..
The crowd went wild, my heart went miles
I threw a sexy smile at Adam, the bartender
my gratitute of his excellence...
I have forgotten the cold, wintery snow outside
My mind had shut down,
all i heard was laughter and giggles,
i knew everybody was enjoying it,
i can't deny it, i was too...
She asked me if i was alright,
I kissed her cheek,
for being the bestfriend i never truly had...
I took the heavy glass out of nigel's hand,
hold it high, and walk my runaway model walk
it wasn't straight they say...
but i did turned around and gave them the best Vouge pose just like Tyra Bank's...
I woke up the next morning,
feeling sick...
My tummy churned, and growled at every food i tried to enter...
My mind is balling,
i can't think straight...
I felt nothing but sickness...
In the middle of all this craziness,
i saw a beautiful tribal moon that made of circles after circles...
and a spear look alike, jabbing out of the circles,
trying to get away from the craziness...
I saw me...
Living in that circles for the last 21 years
confusion...
betrayal...
fear...
hatred...
childlike...
That moment, as my eyes drift to the spear look alike
I told myself,
that is my future in that spear
I saw me,
Living as a
responsible,
trustworthy,
loveable,
successful, and
a beautiful young woman...
As the pain pierced through my skin,
like a sharp knife cutting my flesh,
I thought,
my twenty first birthday doesn't repeat by itself,
Twnety first, just once...
And it will be the ending of my crazy childlike life...
I am, me...
Twenty First was just the Beginning...




My associate -------->






Cheers